Breathe Sis, Breathe

Breathe Sis... Breathe....

December 3, 2015, 1:49pm. Have I breathed since then??

My whole world stopped that day. I could say I never know how I'm going to feel on this day, but that would be a LIE.

From Thanksgiving until the end of the year, I struggle. I feel SAD. This morning I could hardly breathe. Like seriously.... It's hard to breathe.

But.....

I push through because there is no other choice. Life is a journey, and Grief is a part of that journey. Grief is a strange bedfellow. He disappears and then he just JUMPS out from behind the curtain, dressed like Michael Myers or Chuckie or somebody.

A tear will fall, seemingly out of nowhere. Sometimes my heart skips a beat. Sometimes I'm unknowingly holding my breath. Sometimes I cry in my sleep. I wake up and my pillow is wet (or maybe it was a hot flash).

Sometimes I think I'm barely making it, and other times I'm like "I'm totally killing it".

Here are a few things that I know for SURE.

1. You WILL- smile again, laugh again, be happy again, love again.

2. Life IS different-but it’s supposed to be. You roll with your new NORMAL because honestly NOTHING stays the same and there is nothing else to do.

3. Trust the process. You got to go THROUGH the fire to get to the other side. There are no short cuts to healing.

4. You have got to do the work. You just do. Nothing in life is free. Not even healing. In fact, ESPECIALLY not HEALING.

5. God AND Therapy. They go hand and hand, and it's OK to consult with a licensed professional for the latter.

6. The sun WILL shine again. Trust me. Sometimes it's cloudy, but the sun is ALWAYS there peeking through the clouds. Look for it.

7. Be kind to yourself. Let your heart be broken but be COMMITTED to HEALING.

8. Healing doesn't mean FORGETTING, it just means learning how to LIVE again, and living without the caul of grief/grieving following you around and covering your smile.

9. Whatever season is hardest for you, is when you should go HARDEST.

10. Really go HARDEST every day. That way you are ready to fight back when Grief goes HARDEST, too.

If you are struggling with a broken heart.

BREATHE. BREATHE.BREATHE.

You'll get through it. I PROMISE...

It's totally Doable...